I want to apologize for not blogging
in such a long time... no excuses really!! I want to start by saying that we as
a family really appreciate all your love, support and prayers for
us. We would not be able to continue to serve here without them.
The month of March was one of the
most difficult months we have ever experienced. As most of you have
read in our last blog, our dear Ruthie from the baby center in Nakuru went to
be with the Lord on March 7th. As I sat by her bedside in continuous
prayer I held her little hand and just kept thinking that she was alone...but I
know she wasn't' alone. God was holding her the whole time. I cried
so many times when I thought about how she did not have an earthly family,
but I knew she had a Heavenly Father who loved her more than we ever
could.
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| Ruthie after eating a yummy meal at the baby center |
To back up a little, I received
a call from the director of the baby center that Ruthie was vomiting coffee
grounds; to us medical people this was not a good sign. We
immediately told them to bring her in. When she arrived she was
smiling at me and doing do well with all the exams. As I held her in
the emergency room for hours, we sang and I told funny stories (OK it was
mostly to amuse myself since she was only 1.) As the day progressed I started
to get impatient, I called the surgeon and my husband and asked them to come
and examine her again. We moved to the surgical waiting area and I
saw her eyes change...she wasn't responding to me anymore. She
was dying in my arms. I love my husband and the work that he does. He
immediately whisked her from my arms and ran into the surgical suite and
started resuscitating her with the help of a surgeon and the
anesthetist. I paced around the surgical table praying and assisting
wherever hands were needed. After what seemed like forever she finally got her
heart rate back. I stayed with her throughout the surgery and
watched our surgeons do wonderful work. Ruthie never woke up from
that point on. We prayed and prayed for her to recover. I
learned once again that it is not up to me. God is in control all the time and
not just some of the time.
Little did I know that God
would teach me this again just a week later in Little Princess Hannah Kelley's
death on March 14, 2013. We received a call at around
3am from one of our neighbors that their one year old, Hannah, had stopped
breathing. She had been sick for a couple weeks, but it wasn't anything that
seemed too serious. My heart stopped as I watched Chuck get dressed as fast as
he could and run over to their house. They only live a 10 second walk away from
our front door to theirs. As I stood on our front porch watching chuck run
over, I prayed. I heard their door
shut, and then about a minute later I heard the door open again, my heart leapt
for joy as I thought, "Oh good chuck is on his way back and Hannah is
fine." Then the image I have
had a hard time getting out of my nightmares is hearing Chuck counting, then
watching Hannah's daddy, Aaron, carrying Hannah up the sidewalk in a little
blanket and then stopping in front of our house for Chuck to give her a breath.
Then they started running again up the sidewalk. Watching that scene made
my heart so heavy. I cannot begin to describe how the next 24 hours
transpired. Please refer to the Kelley’s blog to hear how these parents
are my heroes.
Their faith in our Lord has inspired
me to examine my heart in so many ways. Scripture has come alive to me in
a new way. These are just a few of the scriptures that mean so much more
to me now. I urge you to read the Word with an open heart to hear what
the Lord has to say to you. Don't miss out on His voice. Listen.
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| Princess Hannah at 1 year photo shoot |
“The Lord himself goes before
you and will be with you: he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not
be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8
“I will give thanks to you,
Lord with all my heart, I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. I will
be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High.”
Psalm 9:1-2
“He reached down from on high
and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters. He rescued me from my
powerful enemy, from my foes, who were too strong for me. They confronted
me in the day of my disaster, but the Lord was my support.”
Psalm 18:16-18
“Whoever dwells in the
shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will
say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I
trust." Psalm 91:1-2
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